[x] I drive myself crazy with my inability to blog when shit is bananas all around me. I think, in part, it's due to the highly public nature of this blog. I know that--at best--five people I know in "real life" read this, but even with that reassurance, it's still so difficult for me to unload my thoughts and emotions here. I don't really get it, but it is what it is.

[x] So...if you're wondering as to the status of our potential foster-to-adopt (medically fragile child) situation...it's all still pending. We have another meeting on 7 April which will leave us with a better understanding of where we stand. We've kept it reasonably under wraps with our "real life" nearest and dearest. Given the fluid nature of anything and everything related to adoption as a whole, we just don't feel the need to "out" anything just yet (provided there even winds up being anything to "out"). If it's looking like a placement will go through, we then plan to tell all of the essential family members (including LF's first mom and her first mom's mom and dad, of course). Once a placement occurs, we'll (gleefully) introduce her to the rest of our friends and relatives. :) Since we made this decision--to adopt a medically fragile child--we've inquired at length about upwards of ten children (some interstate, some in state), and no one has quite been a great fit for our family until now. We've been really quite selective and thorough in our inquiries because it is vital to us that our current three children do not lose out on, well, anything. They are our first concern, of course (I mean, hello--they're already here!), so to adopt a child with substantial medical needs...we needed to find someone who would complete both our family and our lives. "Sunshine" appears to be the perfect fit.

I realize this probably sounds a little harsh, but to voluntarily choose an undertaking of this magnitude...well, you've gotta uncover all the stones, you know? This is not something we on which we embarked lightly. This is a Really Big Deal. But we are hopeful, excited, and most of all, ready. So let's bring it on! Good thoughts would be greatly appreciated next Thursday, so if you have a few to spare...I'll gladly take 'em. :)

[x] Other than that, not much happening here. LF is doing beautifully with both her PT and her DT-V (well, duh--she's awesome!) but teething has been a little rough on her tummy as of late. I don't mind the constant drooling, of course, but those terrible blowout diapers...ugh. I feel so bad for her. Poor baby. Thankfully, Butt Paste saves the day and keeps her happy. And that's all that matters.

Beauty is loving age four so far. She's still wholly enamored with her birthday toys (awesome!) so she's still been more than happy to play with all her loot every single day. As any parent will maintain, this is no easy feat. I'm happy she's so happy, though. :)

Bear is already planning his fifth birthday party, and if it doesn't require a second mortgage, I'll be happy. Good grief! This kid is unreal. We call him the "senator" since his persuasive powers could enable him to sell sand in the desert. ;) He's so excited, though. I am, too. :)

[x] All right, that's enough babbling from yours truly. I am hellaciously tired tonight, so I'm going to try my hand at scheduling this post (it should be up around 9:45 PM--if this works, that is) and unwind. Early bedtime is imminent. As always, more to come... <3